No, that was sarcastic BAWWWWing.
^w^ I'm still cheery. But still lack self-esteem.
It was an honor orchestra. And two songs were super easy. Then the other two were OH GOD WHAT THE FUCK. AND I got 5th Chair out of 10. Good for me!
The competition is for National History Day. IT'S SUPER GAY.
You should feel bad. My pianist was an old German woman who is very polite and is the mom of my orchestra teacher.
Albino had nothing to do with crushing my self esteem. Hell, he tried to raise it. But I'm just absurdly critical of myself, as are my parents. Anything below 95%, and I've failed. And I'm immediately a disappointment to myself.
I have to be a perfect little girl, otherwise I'm going to crash and burn. And hell, I'll probably either get myself into a drug-related incident which will kill me at the age of 19, or I'll be alone, isolated, and depressed in my own home in a desolate part of a city, where I'll off myself in the closet, this time at the ages of 25-30.
uhm... if you have questions about me just Pm me ^^
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ah ok then ^^
WTF? National History Day??? O_o I'm glad the Germans don't have anything like that...
Oh... WHY IS SHE GERMAN??? (epic coincidence) XD
double oh... Hm... I thought he started all that self-esteem crush thingy. You answered in one of your posts, that Albino said that your self-esteem is low and so on, when someone asked you who said that you have these self-esteem issues... woah... your harder to yourself than I am to me... But you always should know that a good mark doesn't really mean everyting. some people start punshing all the stuff one or two days before the exams into their heads and pass with 100% right, but they forget everything (really friggin' everything!!!) right afterwards, and some pay attention to the classes all day and learn that way but still only pass with about 90%. But still, it doesn't mean that they failed! They've really learned it and won't forget it the second the exam's over! True knowledge is better than "faked" marks! You still can learn from your mistakes! Don't be so hard to yourself ^^
btw: I know a joke about fails... I'll write it at the end of my respond!
No, you don't have to. From my point of view you're a very nice, friendly and polite girl. And I guess that you're NOT going to have contact with drugs. Why? Just look how you care for your sis' and your bro'! I can hardly imagine someone that caring and responsible is going to use drugs or starts smoking! And you're not alone. You've got friends IRL AND here on NG. Friends will always support you and help you! And I somehow can't believe that you'll die with 25-30!
so uh, here the "joke" I promised:
Two guys just got their exams back:
Guy A: OMG! I totally failed! T_T
Guy B: Uh, what fail? Asian fail, American fail or European fail?
Guy A: I've got a B! T_T
Guy B: Asian fail! -_-'
It may be not funny, but I once had exactly that situation (I was Guy A)...
ZeroInsanity
Well, how goes it? Get any dandy things from CeBIT?
GAWWD I HAET MY LIFE RIGHT NOW
EDITING A PAPER DUE TOMORROW
THEN I HAVE A CELLO LESSON TOMORROW
AND THEN AN HONOR ORCHESTRA WHERE I'M IN THE PRO1337 SECTION AND IF I FAIL I'LL LOOK RETARDED
AND THEN I HAVE TO GO TO THE COMPETITION I ENTERED FOR THAT DAMN PAPER
AND EARLIER THIS WEEK I HAD 2 CONCERTS AND I HAD TO PERFORM A SOLO WHERE I FAILED SINCE MY PIANIST COULDN'T KEEP UP AND I GOT LOST
THIS IS ALL HAPPENING WHILE MY SELF-ESTEEM IS STILL AT AN ALL TIME LOW
Sanchez150894 (Updated )
yupp ^^ just got a "swag" worth about 150-200EU! XD I just love it! If you ever had the chance to come visit me, I'd take you to the CeBIT too! It's just too fun! There were also L4D, L4D2, the "Avatar" game(!) and Collin McRae Dirt 2 in 3D!!! And free 500GB Hard Drives! OMG OMG OMG XD Still pretty "high" (as well as 5 of my friends, who I've taken in there tpgether with me XD)
Oh... damn... I thought that you've already passed that state :( Sounds really hard... Especially these parts with the Cello... D:
Try staying frosty while on stage! If you get nervous, you'll do more mistakes. If you can't try imagine everyone out there, watching at you were in underpants... or pumpkins... or something else, to distract yourself and to calm down ^^
You won't fail! I know this could sound a bit strange now, but I'll be with ya' and support you ^^ Just don't get nervous and stay calm! It's the most simple trick for massive epic win! :3
What kind of competition is it? Maybe I could give you some help or advice? ^^ Just do your best! If you "fail" just think positive! At least you then know your mistakes and you can learn from them! Failing at a competition isn't bad! No matter if you win or not, you'll still be better than all the other people, not participating in the contest! You're braver than them, you have done your best and you have at least tried to annihilate your competitors! :3
I've been in an Counter Strike Competition today. At first I was really bad, the god damn n00b of the team -.- But then I've remembered the key for success and stayed frosty. You know what happened next? I litteraly CRUSHED my competitors and got to the first place >:D (no I'm no fat, ugly, stupid, retarded hard-core gamer like these all-day-clichee-like ones)
Oh... KILL THAT DAMN PIANIST! HE DESERVES IT! KILL HIM! >:3
hm... well, it seems like my strategy of leaving you for a short period of time to help motivating you to re-build your self-esteem failed :( meh...
Is there any way I could help you? I kinda' feel really bad... since I haven't helped you, I couldn't stop Albino from crushing your self-esteem T.T I failed...
Just try NOT letting him get the control of you! Promise me!